When Paige and I first started dreaming about this blog, one of the first things I said was I would love a space to talk about faith. My faith has always been a constantly evolving journey for me…a more concise analogy would be a rollercoaster, actually. There are times where I feel super solid in my relationship with God and other times where I feel completely removed from Him. It’s not like I feel anger or frustration towards God. I used to feel that way when certain things happened or didn’t happen, but as I have matured (aka, as I’ve gotten older), that frustration has subsided. I know He has His reasons for why certain things happen the way that they do.
No, feeling removed is pretty much my own doing. I will get caught up in the details of my own life and realize that He has not been on my mind. Usually when that happens I will feel myself, my mental strength and my confidence, slipping away. When I finally realize what is happening I feel really, really timid about getting back in touch with Him. Super shy, maybe a little embarrassed. Kind of like the time you needed to reach out to a friend but didn’t, and once you’re ready to get in touch with them you’re a little worried about how they will react when they do hear from you.
That’s where I stand today.
I have found some really inspiration ladies on Instagram, one of them being Jess Connolly (www.instagram.com/jessaconnolly). Jess is the founder of the Naptime Diaries, which is one of my favorite scripture shops…don’t worry, I’ll write more about them another time. One thing that I love about Jess is she is so transparent in her struggles as a mom, wife and as a Christian. She reminds her followers, and herself, on a pretty consistent basis that God loves you no matter what. How easy it is for us to forget that God just wants to be with us, to be part of our lives. He doesn’t have a problem meeting us where we stand, whether we are feeling strong in our faith or like we are on the outskirts of a party, tentative to join in. Hearing this encouragement and reminder regularly is like a breath of fresh air, especially if you are like me and go through seasons where you just don’t stay in touch like you should.
I am hopeful that these faith-based posts provide a space for you to open your heart and evaluate where you are in your journey. Though we might be at different stages, we are all on this crazy life adventure together. Both Paige and I are making a commitment to you that we will always be honest with where we stand…the good, the bad, and everything in between.
“You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same.” – Indescribable, Chris Tomlin