As you’ve probably gathered over the past eight months or so, I’m pretty good at over-sharing. In fact, just the other day my middle sister and I were chuckling at the fact that I like to share so much that I have two blogs.
I used to think my tendency for sharing how I felt about everything was a negative thing. Many of my friends are much better at keeping things close to home, which allows them privacy with personal matters. It wasn’t really until I started getting feedback on a few of the more personal posts published on this blog that I realized that by being open with my own struggles and shortcomings it allowed others to feel less alone with whatever they were going through as well. I’m grateful for those readers who took the time to send Paige and I texts, emails or face-to-face feedback letting us know that a certain post resonated with them. Believe me, that was one of our primary (if not the primary) goals when deciding to move forward with The Cocobee.
Despite my natural tendencies to share everything, I just haven’t been feeling it lately. Nothing major has happened to make me feel any different. I’m not experiencing some version of a life crisis, we’re not in any kind of trouble, no one is seriously ill (thank God, knock on wood). If anything, life has just been happening and I have been having trouble keeping up. Seriously, can you believe today is the first day of March? I am pretty grateful that 2016 is a leap year because I needed an extra day in February to do some reflection.
I turn 29 today, which is crazy. Selfishly, I like celebrating my birthday because it gives me the chance to feel extra special without the guilt that usually accompanies me. I also like stretching out my birthday celebrations into a week-long thing because, well, it’s just more fun. Life is funny, though, because since becoming a parent I realize that my birthday isn’t really all that important. I would much rather spend a bunch of time planning special surprises for my daughters’ birthdays than I would my own. Plus, no matter how special I want to feel, the reality of it is I still spent last night waking up every three hours to nurse Madison and Reece still has to go to work today. Just because it’s my birthday doesn’t mean my responsibilities are going away for a day. Being an adult kinda stinks in that way.
This reality bummed me out for a couple days last week, I’ll be honest. After I got over the initial “wah wah” feeling, I found myself coming up with ideas for small ways to make the day (cough cough, week) special regardless. On Sunday I road tripped with myself down to Vancouver for the first installment of a year-long personal photography project. I baked my own birthday cake, which surprisingly tastes pretty good despite a frosting fail. Tonight we’re making homemade pizza, my new favorite dinner. I get to spend time with both my family and Reece’s family next weekend. In general, I’m going to grant myself a little more grace than usual.
My biggest gift to myself, though? I’m going to take March off and focus on just being a wife and a mom. Call it a self-imposed vacation, or the beauty of being self-employed. Truthfully, I need to get back to basics. Reece and I had decided that our word of the year is “simplify,” and while I think I did a decent job with this in January, I fell on my face in February. As a result I’ve been way less patient with my girls, my husband and myself. Not the greatest way to start off the year, so I’m resetting. Better now than never, in my opinion.
Paige has been feeling the need to focus on being a mom as well, so it’s going to be quiet on The Cocobee for a few weeks. If you follow me on my photography blog, too, it’ll be quiet there as well. Don’t worry, I’ll still work on my outstanding shoots (I wouldn’t dare make you guys wait four weeks for your photos)! I just want to be a little more…quiet.
If you’re worried about what you’re going to do without any new Cocobee posts for a few weeks, don’t fret! Here are some other things to get excited about in March:
- We’re still in Lent, but Easter is just around the corner! How is your Lent going? If you need a bit of a refocus as well, re-read THIS POST about Lent and spend some time with the Lord this week. I’ve found that listening to Christian music has been a really comforting form of prayer. If you’re in the Seattle area, have you heard of the new Christian music station K-LOVE? I’m a big fan, definitely worth checking it out.
- Daylight savings is Sunday, March 13!
- [added at the request of my math teacher friends] March 14 is Pi Day! Despite my accounting background I’m not really a math person…but usually Pi Day means someone makes pie, so I guess that’s a good thing. ;)
- St. Patrick’s Day is in a couple weeks. Woohoo! Looking for a way to add some green to your standard St. Patty’s Day meal? I’d suggest Paige’s Brussels Sprouts. These things are delicious and a great addition to any meal. Pretty sure they’d pair well with a Guinness or a black & blue (Guinness/Blue Moon or Harp). Just sayin…
- SPRING STARTS March 20th!! (Which is also Palm Sunday)
P.S. Macklemore’s new album dropped last Friday and it’s awesome. Buy it now and get to listening. SO GOOD you guys.
Hope you have a very wonderful month of March, friends. See you on the other side.